Michelle G says:

Thank you so much.This is really helping me.And I recieve it and Matts comment.
Before I came here I was and felt so alone and isolated,even though my older kids are steps behind me. I was even at a point of I’d rather die than live in this world anymore. I hate “it” and don’t want to be here no more. Yet I press on because I know we are called to occupy from our Lord and Master,until He comes. I want to be a true disciple of Him.
It’s ONLY His Love and the faith,Yehshua gave me by His Holy Spirit and that of other believers especially the RCs,that have kept me from falling off the edge either back into drugs and alcohol or insanity and to not give into the lies of the enemy or the tempatation of suicide. I KNOW I am not alone. We can not make it without the Helper,Yehshua /Jesus left us.He Knew it! He loves us so much.

One ofmy first readings here was the 144,000 and the Multitudes. I’m not sure where I fit in somedays…but I know I just don’t fit into the world I have been livng in anymore.
Now,it is ripping out the hook from my mouth and to spit out the coins, that my family have been surviving on most of our lives.We are hard workers.It’s the stamina part. Never the less,the fact remains,we must let it all go…any and all of it.That means the SSI,the medical,foodstamps,low income housing,and energy assistance to keep warm.The Lord has been helping us prepare but it is still scarey at times.(Thanks for sharing the links from Mr. Cross)

Soon we have to leave it all behind before it is unattainable without serious compromise,for the Remnant Christians.
My heart is heavy knowing there are so many other poor,elderly,disabled in this country and the world now. What about them??? It will have to be TRUE miracles from the Lord!
We must prepare and learn to truly trust the Lord without depending on the ‘Beast Systems & it’s provisions, that are soon coming to a dead end.

At the community service and warming center,down the street from where we live, I see many more people now on the streets that haven’t been there before.The regular homeless are afraid of them because these are so much more desparate and dangerous and without survival skills but even more tragic with out hope in The One True Living God and Savior Yehshua Ha Mashiach/Jesus Christ of Nazareth and YHWH Abba Father.
It humbles me even more as I realise, even the poorest among us here,are so rich, compared to the truly destitute of the world.

It’s like they can see in our faces,in our eyes and they know we know we have “The Key”…As their spirits almost yell out loud:”Help me! Give me what you’ve got!”… Just give it to them,so they don’t have to do anything themselves. Everyone wants the Treasure in the field,without the toil and journey of seeking and laboring to find it. And then,rich or poor,most get angry when you tell them “Silver and gold I have none but what I do have I give thee…”
It’s that Grace without OBEDIANCE message.It is so poison.It nearly choked me and mine out. Oh some listen and you can see it in their eyes.”I know,but…” and ususally turn away. Then there’s the ones that are trying to help,yet are still asleep in their service and give the look: Oh you poor thing,like we are just crazy…
So I just say thank you and I come back home and study some more…
Sometimes it seems I just can’t cram in another tiny speck of these deeper truths,into my mind,soul,heart and spirit with out breaking down again.

So my prayer is: Lord,Thank you for everything. Please forgive me for complaining and give us faith that fails not,undertstanding,with wisdom, strength and grace,to finish this race in victory.Trusting in You by the leading and provision of Your Holy Spirit. Please send out the laborers, for the harvest is truly ripe. Please bring forth the Manifest Sons of God & call all Your Sons & Daughters,help guide them out the world,that desparately tugs at them all to stay in it. We ask in Yehshua/Jesus Your Sons’ Name. Amen and Amen